Not really 'on top', but I do have a 'tip'

I can't deny I am having a tough morning. Waiting for 'that phone call' that will propel me into an appointment busy life is really difficult. I am happy to have had a very nice weekend away visiting family, but having to come home to reality was a bummer. Not knowing the details of what you are going to be dealing with in the next few months is extremely difficult.

I am convinced that there is power in knowledge. Reading books on the subject has helped a great deal. One book I bought is called  "Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips" by Kris Carr (Morris Publishing Group, 2007).  An excellent book by someone who has 'been there'. (She also made a film of the same name and I actually did watch it a few years ago.) Anyway, I hope it will be ok with her if I do a bit of quoting. Being in the same club, I am sure she won't mind.

Tip:   Remove these words from your daily speech.....'maybe, sure, I don't know and you decide'

"Before cancer I was kinda voiceless about a lot of important things in my life. My common response to questions or decisions was, "Whatever you want is fine with me." Now I can get pretty mouthy 'cause I am no longer afraid to say what I want and ask for what I need. And guess what? It's okay to put yourself first. Everyone else takes care of number one, so why can't you? It's not selfish! Cancer isn't killing me, it's just forcing me to grow up."

 

Oh, I can totally relate! Spent my whole life doing that, pretty much. Don't rock the boat, don't make waves, and just be so very agreeable. I will admit that I have made waves occasionally, but those instances worked out so badly that I swore to myself I would not do that again. But, why not? Am I not allowed to have an opinion? Being the youngest of four in a family can do some damage, I am afraid. Being the 'cute one' was not a good thing, in many respects. Having my own children was a huge blessing and helped me to see that I could be a strong human being that has to deal with real life issues. Meeting my husband Paul was the best thing that ever happened to me. Having our daughters was right up there beside the best thing. 

Having incredible support from family and friends at this time in my life is beyond wonderful. I really don't think I could cope without it.

Well, I actually feel better now. Maybe that phone call will come soon and I can then concentrate on kicking this crappy C word to the curb!